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Hello, As my nickname says, I am a single father of 3. Two teen girls 17 and 16 and a preteen boy 12. I came to this site because I am in desperate need of help. When I was younger I did some really retarded things and ended up spending 8 1/2 years in prison. When I got out I sought custody of my children after learning that the birth mother was using methamphetamine and was in a very abusive relationship. After 2 years I finally achieved my goal and was awarded custody after working my a** off getting employment, housing etc. Now my children are my life. And everything has been great until the last 4 months or so. I was attending college for computer programming and lost my federal aid due to an unknown learning disability where I could not retain the information for long periods of time. And therefore was unable to keep a C average as I would forget I had class or even to do the homework. I lost my employment due the economy and have been unable to keep up with the bills. I have had to write bad checks to pay bills and now I owe almost $2,000 to the bank. My electric bill is almost $600 and so on and so forth. Everything would've been great except that I had to pay $1,038 to get my car fixed. (Yeah they scalped me but I can't prove it). That car payment was a killer and now I am at risk of losing everything I've so hard to get. Just yesterday my car's radiator cracked so I have no transportation, it just seems like there is one f**ked up thing after another and I can't make any headway or get out of this slump. I'm about to just give up and throw it all away, but i can't do that to my children. You know they say crime is bad but they make it so damn hard to not be a criminal, it shouldn't be this hard to exist. When I was doing crime I always had money and had no needs, but now that I walk the straight and narrow, I never have cash, I am always needing something. It's all backwards. I need help. If it's just sympathy that's better than nothing. Thank You!